changes....

Recently I have begun to see that leaving Chicago was probably the best thing that I could have done for myself. I have also begun to see that I must prioritize what's important to me.

Right now my priorities are my graduate assistantship with Orchard Downs and my classes. Following those two things, my priorities are building a good base of healthy friendships with healthy people here in Champaign, and also to continue to sing and maintain my musical interests.

The term healthy to me implies that the individuals are on the right track...have healthy hobbies and healthy social lives - like "A." I am OH SO tired of the gay bar scene and the unnecessary dramas that come along with it. I intend to sort of pull away from that crowd - and am seeking friendships with balanced gay people. Folks who can spend time with staight folks, aren't in bars several nights a week and have more to talk about then their sexuality or relationship dramas.

I almost feel like the universe/God is showing me two paths intentionally right now, and allowing me to choose which I would prefer to walk - but also to not pass judgment on the path that I may choose to forgo. Recently "A" has really extended his hand in friendship by inviting me to things and vice versa, this has been really nice - because I sense no agenda from him at all other than companionship and this is a welcome change from the Chicago environment.

I would rather be a "competent loner", who is excelling professionally with peace of mind than to be surrounded with friends w/ bar drama, etc.

I am not a perfect man, I am reminded of this daily by mistakes I've made (with money recently), but I do know that I am determined to improve these habits. I hope that my friends and family will stick by me and continue to love and support me and just see that this is me still growing up a bit.

I am convinced that I am highly stressed, and that I need to have an action plan that helps me alleviate those stressors - that action plan definitely includes that list of PRIORITIES!!!

1)Graduate Assistantship
2) MSW Classes/Coursework
3) Healthy Social Life
4) Expressive outlets (Music/Writing)